Story with an analogy of my life
As I sit here, staring at this blank piece of paper, I try to think "what analogies can I relate to my life?" The only thing that came to my mind is how I am not good enough. The analogy that I came up with was a dollar bill. I am that dollar bill that everyone wants, but few truly appreciate it. I am tossed around to whoever needs it but once they do not want it, I am handed off to someone else. Over time, I fear that I will lose my worth and eventually be replaced.
1. I think this is a brilliant analogy.
ReplyDelete2. I know, for a fact, that even when the world has lost its love for the dollar, there will ALWAYS be one person who collects every bill he can find and cherish's it, keeping it safe.
Something i've come to learn is that not everyone can love you. It's just a fact. And not everyone is MEANT to love you. I know that's not what you were saying, but i'm getting to a point :) One day there will be a person who truly appreciates you. You even have that person now, who knows, but there will be someone out there.
Sometimes when we are at a certain place in our lives it's hard to see all the good that is in it. I've been there. But times get better. And it helps, at least it helps me, to think that God will always want you, that you will never lose your value with him. He will not throw you away just because he got a cleaner newer dollar bill, or because america went back to the gold standard. He will ALWAYS want you. (:
Sweet girl, that last line is something that is my daily "lie"-- that's the one that Satan gets me with more successfully than any other.
ReplyDeleteBut it was never about either of us being enough, was it? We'll never be "enough"-- whatever that means. But HE is. And He has enough love, and enough grace, and enough safety to take care of you and me both. In all the moments when you're tempted to beat yourself up for failing to meet some "standard" the world has handed you, remember: you are LOVED. You are HIS girl. And there is nothing you can do or not do to shake His love for you, or to make His delight in you subside. He has enough for you, every day.
Thank you for your vulnerability, and for the cool image of the dollar-- what a perfect symbol to show the standards of the world, and the sentiment that-- when measured against that, we fall short. What a relief we DON'T have to measure ourselves with those standards.
I took a couple points off for typos-- you get full points for depth and heart.
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Mariah, over the years I've had a pretty good friendship with you and we talk all time. There is one thing that I have noticed about you though. You try to find your worth in places where people don't value anything; not themselves, what they do, or you. There are plenty of people I know and that you know that would do anything for you. Sometimes it's better just to take a break from people and find where your value lies. I've experienced this first hand. I'll tell you one thing though. God always has and always will value you. Nothing but love for you sister.
ReplyDeleteThe "am I good enough?" dilemma is something I also struggle with. What standard we're trying to be "good enough" for I don't know. Inadequacy is a frustrating and discouraging feeling. Value is entirely subjective. Unlike the dollar, the value of which inflates and deflates, you are consistently valuable and important. You will never lose your worth and you will never be replaced because you are the only Mariah anyone is ever going to have. And you're dang good at it. Much love. xoxo.
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