Personal Testing

When I took the Myers-Briggs test, my letters were INFJ.

Introvert(44%)  iNtuitive(38%)  Feeling(38%)  Judging(44%)

• You have moderate preference of Introversion over Extraversion (44%)
• You have moderate preference of Intuition over Sensing (38%)
• You have moderate preference of Feeling over Thinking (38%)
• You have moderate preference of Judging over Perceiving (44%)

Beneath the quiet exterior, INFJs hold deep convictions about the weightier matters of life. Those who are activists -- INFJs gravitate toward such a role -- are there for the cause, not for personal glory or political power. INFJs are champions of the oppressed and downtrodden. They often are found in the wake of an emergency, rescuing those who are in acute distress. INFJs may fantasize about getting revenge on those who victimize the defenseless. The concept of 'poetic justice' is appealing to the INFJ. "There's something rotten in Denmark." Accurately suspicious about others' motives, INFJs are not easily led. These are the people that you can rarely fool any of the time. Though affable and sympathetic to most, INFJs are selective about their friends. Such a friendship is a symbiotic bond that transcends mere words.
This first part of the description minus the "concept of 'poetic justice'" part pretty accurately describes me! I try to be there for people and help them get through their problems, however I am very picky on who my friends are and who I decide to open up to.

The next thing said was that INFJs have a knack for fluency in language and facility in communication. In addition, nonverbal sensitivity enables the INFJ to know and be known by others intimately.
This is a FAT lie... I am awful with language and communicating. I cannot read in front of people or give presentations without freaking out. I wish I was better at languages and communicating with other, but I am quite awful at it.

It says that writing, counseling, public service and even politics are areas where INFJs frequently find their niche.
First off, I absolutely hate writing (Sorry Mrs. Myers) and I cannot stand politics. I do like helping people with their issues, however, I do not want to sit behind a desk and ask people "And so how do you feel about that...?" for a living.

Honestly, I struggled with this part because I do not like looking at the good factors of my personality and I focus on the negative parts, so this is really hard for me to do.

The next thing I had to do for class was ask four people to describe my personality in three to five words with a little paragraph on what they believe I have going for myself. I had Mr. Ed, Mr. Coffey, Melanie and Keaton fill one out for me. The crazy thing was that Mr. Coffey and Keaton pretty much said word for word what the other one wrote. Kind of creepy right? Ill just say what Keaton wrote since it is shorter haha :) Keaton described me as personable, helpful, perseverant, outgoing and loyal.  He went on to say that "Mariah is very talented at being able to connect to an individual. She appropriately identifies times to help others and has a compassionate attitude. She is willing to stick her neck out to ensure the well being of others and couldn't car less what people think about her. Rather, she hopes to become her best self because she is individually motivated and driven. Willing to challenge herself, she will be able to accomplish more and will break any obstacle in her way once she sets her mind off." Mr. Coffey added on to this that "The best thing about [me] is [my] potential. [I] have all the ingredients to become a leader and encouragement in society."

Okay, so scratch my comment on me struggling on the last part, I struggled on this whole assignment. This is hard for me to look at the bright side of my personality and just focus on my screw ups and what I am horrible at instead.


Thank you for those of you who took your time to read this :)

"The Christian idea of marriage is based  on Christ's words that a man and wife are to be regarded as a single organism - for that is what the words 'one flesh' would be in modern English. And the Christians believe that when He said this He was not expressing a sentiment but stating a face - just as one is stating a fact when one says that a lock and its key are one mechanism, or that I violin and a bow are one musical instrument. The inventor of the human machine was telling us that its two halves, the male and female, were made to be combined together in pairs, not simply on the sexual level, but totally combined..." (104).

We did not really talk about marriage in class, but this quote stuck out to me. Now-a-days, people are uniting as one before marriage and are treating sex like a recreational everyday activity, which is not how sex is supposed to be. Marriage is when two people unite and become one, not only under God's law, but as well as the government. It makes me sad seeing girls give up their virginity to a guy because they think that the guy "loves them" and does not want him to leave her. If the guy really loved the girl and was not only with her to get some action, he would actually love her and marry her first.

This quote personally effects me because it makes me think about things before I do it. Not only through sex, but in other choices in my life as well. As Mrs. Meyers pointed out, "when a person is in conflict, both sides are equally represented," and as in the case of sex as well as other issues of morality, it is a matter of which side I choose to put more stock into that determines the outcome. And ideally, the decision will be made with the influence of the Holy Spirit.

Story with an analogy of my life

As I sit here, staring at this blank piece of paper, I try to think "what analogies can I relate to my life?" The only thing that came to my mind is how I am not good enough. The analogy that I came up with was a dollar bill. I am that dollar bill that everyone wants, but few truly appreciate it. I am tossed around to whoever needs it but once they do not want it, I am handed off to someone else. Over time, I fear that I will lose my worth and eventually be replaced.

Litany Rewrite

You are the wood and the fire,
the spark and the gasoline.
You are the light that illuminates the sky
and the glow of the pale moonlight.
You are the white of the Navy mans uniform
and the tide-to-go for stains

However, you are not the cold, dark gloomy nights,
the ruin to my name,
or the monster in my closet.
And you are certainly not the pitch fork to the fire.
There is just no way you are the pitch fork to the fire.

It is possible that you are the thunder in a storm,
maybe even the blood for my heart,
but you are not even close
to being the salt in a wound.

And the reflection in the water will show,
that you are neither the ripples in the pond,
nor the car in the garage.

It may intrigue you to learn,
that I am the eyes gazing into the fire,
and the biting of the pen.

I am the ant in a large room,
the mask of a hero (the hidden hand of kindness)
and the secret joy of sibling rivalries.

I am the lost translation
and the seeker to the light.
But don't worry, I'm not the wood and the fire.
You are still the wood and the fire.
You will always be the wood and the fire,
not to mention the spark and -- somehow -- the gasoline.
Mariah May